The Option List

I won’t lie; this week was hard.

For some reason, I just haven’t had it going on. In my job, that is. Elsewhere in my life, I’m doing pretty great. But at work, I can’t get motivated…I can’t focus…I feel useless. I am frustrated by what I see as lack of support and resources, and that leaves me feeling rather despondent.

I feel powerless not just to external forces but also to myself. But that’s not really the case! I don’t actually have to put up with this bullshit. I have options. I made a list of them, and I’ll share them with you. I can:

  1. I can quit my job.
  2. I can stay in my job, and continue to be frustrated by it.
  3. I can stay in my job and let go of the things that bother me. I can release myself from worrying about whether I’m doing a good enough job. I can do what I can and leave it at that.

These are my choices. Every day I have them available to me. And every day I am making a choice about which one to go for.

I realized that I’m currently at #2, which kind of sucks. However, I think I can achieve #3, the letting go, and that in itself is a powerful realization. I’ll continue to try to hold on (to the job) and let go (of the frustrations) at the same time.

I am not quite at the point of choosing Door Number One (quitting). But having it in my back pocket, and knowing that I can use it any time I want, is a pretty great feeling.

Which door will you choose today?

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